We once again I suppose I should start my post by apologizing for my lack of posts. I know, I suck at blogging. One of these days maybe I'll actually remember to blog and then more people will actually follow me and then there will actually be a point to my blogging. But until then, all I can do is say sorry to a nonexistent audience. How terrific.
Well I broke up with Koree. Two days ago now, and I know that's horrible timing because, I mean, it's Christmas Break, when everything is supposed to be happy. But, you know, I wasn't so I decided that I had to do something about it. I mean, I wasn't rude about it. I was very nice. I had my reasons, and I believe that they were very good reasons, and I sought out the advice of a couple good girlfriends and they thought my reasons were very good too. But naturally, he had to make it hard on me by not accepting it and fighting and arguing about it. Naturally. And then, to top it all off, after professing his love for me and begging me to reconsider, he goes and gets a new girlfriend THE NEXT DAY. Some love, right?
Anyway, this other guy has started texting me a lot the past few days. And I know what you're thinking, I'm not any better than Koree right? Wrong. I did nothing to encourage this guy, I don't even know for sure if he does like me, and I don't plan on doing anything about it at the moment. I just want to figure out my life, figure out what I want, and if things end up going in his direction at some point... Well then I guess that's where my life is leading. If not, then oh well. I just need a nice break from stupid boys, because apparently my judgement isn't the best, if we're basing it on my past few choices.
But on to these mind games that I speak of. This guy that's been texting me... Well he's confusing. He always says things and makes these comments that could definitely be taken as, I guess we'll call it, "interest." But at the same time, they don't necessarily have to be taken that way. They could be completely innocent, or completely full of connotation, though if they're innocent he needs to calm down on his casual flirtatiousness, because really, that's just a bit much for just having a little bit of fun.
And the thing is, I don't even know yet if I'm interested in him. I mean, he's totally the type of guy I would generally go for, but there's a bit of baggage to the situation that makes it a little more risky than your average guy. And plus, I just got out of a relationship so how am I supposed to know for certain what I want yet? So I guess I'm kind of glad that he's keeping me guessing at the moment because at least that way I get a little more time to figure out what I want.
Oh well. All I can say is that I'm way happier now that I got the courage to go through a breakup, and I'm not stressing about it anymore. This day is definitely better than the last.
